YESTERDAY'S HAPPENINGS
WATCHED A MOVIE. ONE SCENE MADE ME CRY AND I WANTED TO JUST LET OUT MY FRUSTRATIONS....CRY MY HEART OUT LOUDLY BUT OFF COURSE THAT WAS NOT POSSIBLE IN THE CINEMA. THE PLAN WAS TO GO TO THE BEACH THIS MORNING AND LET RIP BUT I WOKE UP LATE. IM ALWAYS UNABLE TO CRY WHEN I HAVE THE NEED TO. AND WHEN I WANT TO...IT NEVER WORKS OUT. THE FRUSTRATION REMAINS INSIDE.
I want to go tomorrow but it is raining cats and dogs atm and 100% chance of rain at sunrise soooooooooo. no crying on the beach. Story of my life.
Today was a restful day. Im busy with wedding preparations. its stressful but at least it keeps my mind busy most days.
The chest longs for love but the heart hates it. The eyes seek a soulful glance but the head hates it. why wish for the impossible? Love is betrayal. Pain that rips the very fabric of your soul. Its good for other humans but NOT for me. The arms long to hug and be hugged tightly, close, so strongly that the breath stops for a minute. But the body rejects all thoughts of being held close. There are lies in close hugs. Hurt. Falseness. Fake gesture. But that scene in the movie where she goes close to his face and says...just admit you also love me....and he pulls her in for a huge tight hug...it made me want that just for a second. I wanted that closeness just for a second. I wanted to feel that love...to be loved like that just for a second.
How lucky are those that find their true love. If you have found yours, don't let it go. fight for it. nuture it. keep it going. Never give up on it.
Thank you for reading.
Peace and Love
Lady S
