CORONAVIRUS AND ANXIETY

It's bad enough having a chronic anxiety problem...then along comes THE CORONAVIRUS  to add to your woes. I cannot see my therapist,  she was relocating to New Zealand in April but I think those plans are on hold now.  Her replacement was kind enough to email me  to reassure me that she's still available via Skype. It's good to know that I can contact her if the anxiety overwhelms me. I already had a bout or 2 of palpitations since the coronavirus hit South Africa.  WE had 709 cases this morning...  I'm having sleepless nights or very little sleep most nights. My daytime naps are short and I'm jarred awake by the slightest sound or movement or by bad dreams.  So I am exhausted the next day. My morning runs are cancelled.  This makes me edgy and both restless and anxious. They usually calm and destress me.  

Then there's my concern for my children's welfare in this trying time. I pray daily that they are always healthy . I cry for the world.  For Italy and China and Spain and South Africa and for every human being , for my maid and gardener , every life form, for the dead and the sick and the doctors and nurses. I fear for my dog. My mouth is dry as  I type this. There's a fear within my soul which I must purge. I must accept what's happening.  Or this anxiety will override me, imagine lying in bed with palpitations for 2 or more days, non stop.  I must be well so I can care for my family,  my son who still lives with me. 

In 24 hrs time South Africa will start their 21 day lockdown.  I pray this helps us to flatten the curve here. The thought of what will happen in the days to come is so frightening.  But faith and prayer will get us through this. 

We stocked up on food and essentials.  No stockpiling as the food stores and pharmacies will remain open. I will cook daily since the food places are closed.  No deliveries allowed. I will clean daily as  my maid will not come to work due to the lockdown and I will tend to my garden as my gardener will also not be able to come to work. 

This will be the scenario  in every household now. But still some idiotic people are visiting family, having get togethers at their homes,  going to church meetings, spreading the disease. Human beings acting like retards. 

Thank you for reading.  Writing helps my anxiety calm down. 

I wish you and your loved ones peace and love and safety from the coronavirus..

Stay blessed

LADY S 🙏❣