CAN'T SLEEP
It's 1.55am, wednesday, 1 June 2011..my sleep broke in a weird and "jerky" manner at 12.30am..i felt lost and disorientated. It took me abt 30mins to feel myself back in my body. When i was abruptly awakened by God knows what, it felt like i was lost in an alien world. My bed, yes, my walls, yes, my cupboards, yes, my duvet, yes, not my body. Not my thoughts, not me! For a few moments, it was like i was looking at myself from outside my mind, yet still in my body. I sifted my thoughts, tried to analyse the gazillion thoughts that were fighting for my attention. Then i did what i do best in times like this. I wrote down my feelings as a poem and i came online to write this. Somehow writing grounds me, sorts out my confusions and neutralizes my crazy thought patterns. Some people wakeup in the middle of the night and have a bowl of ice cream, some may call a loved and chat for hours on the phone, others soothe themselves with music. For me, writing is the balm which cools and calms my soul when it gets blown about by the rough winds of life.
The way i see it, people stay awake for two reasons mainly. When they are extremely happy or when they are extremely sad. Ive been awake for both reasons in the past. Right now im overjoyed as my only daughter just got engaged. Im juggling my days with preparations for her engagement celebrations which will happen in exactly 10 days time. Im thrilled to be planning this event as the lovely couple have graciously handed over all the details of this exciting day to moi! I love planning and executing events, especially happy ones. People who know scorpions, will know that we scorpions are not just a pretty face with stings! Scorpions love to delegate. We make great organisers and are born LEADERS!! In other words, we tell people what to do and we love it! Well im using my scorpion skills to the fullest and im enjoying every minute of it.
Now if i can only order miss sleep to take me to dreamland. That would be nice. And place a side order of sweet dreamz with sprinkles of magic and love and happy vibes, topped with a humongous layer of nut filled chocolate that i can eat all night while floating on clouds of whispery cotton candy...YUMMY YUM YUM!
Alas miss sleep didnt get my order..i dozed off for a little while but was wide awake again and the last time i looked at my room clock, it was 4.20am.
Plan to make myself dog tired today and hopefully will get some sleep tonight! but to be continued.......
peace and love
Lady S
It's 1.55am, wednesday, 1 June 2011..my sleep broke in a weird and "jerky" manner at 12.30am..i felt lost and disorientated. It took me abt 30mins to feel myself back in my body. When i was abruptly awakened by God knows what, it felt like i was lost in an alien world. My bed, yes, my walls, yes, my cupboards, yes, my duvet, yes, not my body. Not my thoughts, not me! For a few moments, it was like i was looking at myself from outside my mind, yet still in my body. I sifted my thoughts, tried to analyse the gazillion thoughts that were fighting for my attention. Then i did what i do best in times like this. I wrote down my feelings as a poem and i came online to write this. Somehow writing grounds me, sorts out my confusions and neutralizes my crazy thought patterns. Some people wakeup in the middle of the night and have a bowl of ice cream, some may call a loved and chat for hours on the phone, others soothe themselves with music. For me, writing is the balm which cools and calms my soul when it gets blown about by the rough winds of life.
The way i see it, people stay awake for two reasons mainly. When they are extremely happy or when they are extremely sad. Ive been awake for both reasons in the past. Right now im overjoyed as my only daughter just got engaged. Im juggling my days with preparations for her engagement celebrations which will happen in exactly 10 days time. Im thrilled to be planning this event as the lovely couple have graciously handed over all the details of this exciting day to moi! I love planning and executing events, especially happy ones. People who know scorpions, will know that we scorpions are not just a pretty face with stings! Scorpions love to delegate. We make great organisers and are born LEADERS!! In other words, we tell people what to do and we love it! Well im using my scorpion skills to the fullest and im enjoying every minute of it.
Now if i can only order miss sleep to take me to dreamland. That would be nice. And place a side order of sweet dreamz with sprinkles of magic and love and happy vibes, topped with a humongous layer of nut filled chocolate that i can eat all night while floating on clouds of whispery cotton candy...YUMMY YUM YUM!
Alas miss sleep didnt get my order..i dozed off for a little while but was wide awake again and the last time i looked at my room clock, it was 4.20am.
Plan to make myself dog tired today and hopefully will get some sleep tonight! but to be continued.......
peace and love
Lady S
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