DAY SIX

                                          
                                   DIET DAY SIX

Day 6 already. difficult day 6. By the evening i was starving although i had had all allowed meals and snacks. I ate 2 provita biscuits before dinner. Not allowed but hunger pangs would

not go. Now had dinner. Forgot to take my insulin dose this morning so sugar was 10 after breakfast. 

I have found that harder than dieting is handling the fact that u dont get support from the people around you. A fellow diabetic laughed at me mockingly when i told him not to eat a muffin. I am suffering to diet i said. I was crying as i was so hungry i said. Please dont do this to yourself. Dont get to the stage i am. I was trying to help becos i know the hell i am in. But i was laughed at and that hurt a lot. Half your battle is won if you are supported and encouraged in any battle u face in your life. But when you are mocked its not right. In indian homes the wife is blamed if anyone get sick. I will be asked why that person is in that state. If i say that i tried to prevent it then i will still be hung without a trial and the cherry on the top will be that i will be force to look after the culprit daily. But that is a topic for another blog. 

For now i can say that the behaviour of some people and the complete lack of support towards me is very discouraging. On the third day, after i told my dietician that my sugar levels were down and i was sticking to the diet, she said "well done!"  I was so surprised and pleased with this praise. I appreciated it so much and i mailed her to thank her. No one can succeed in life without any good comments and support. I know i cant. I am always supportive of the people around me. i expect the same. Expectations are not always met.

It is said that life is not easy. This is so true. But i hang in there. Someday i too will get my sweet reward.

Thanks for reading peeps and keep the sugar levels down.

Love and Peace
Lady S

THE DIET DAY TWO

           



                                                          DAY TWO

Today is day two. Sugar levels have come down but the price i pay is high....hunger :-(  

Had to go out to a prayer for lunch and it was hell as i could not eat a lot of food. I could have had more curry only without the roti, rice or puri but as i was out and not at home, i found it very uncomfortable to do this. As it is people were surprised when i refused to have the oily fried stuff and the soji. But not having those things was easy. Not eating enough food was tough. and i was soooooo hungry when i returned home but my meal plan forbids a second lunch so alas i had to wait until it was snack time. This made me so sad. Dieting i dont mind but going hungry? Thats really hurtful to my body especially my stomach ..and my heart... :-(  Its really really difficult to eat out whilst on a diet. 

Dinner was good though. Grilled lamb chops, baked bean salad, half a boiled egg and a roll....yummy. Will have some milo as my snack before bedtime. Still feel as if im not full though its all in my head. I ate a gud portion size and i am allowed to eat more protein which i did not and also more salad. I need to adjust to this new eating habit...its hard to forgo the delicious potato salad...the sauces and margarine on my roll. 

Well lets see how tomorrow goes. Im already dreaming of food....Immmm... 

thanks for reading
Peace and love
Lady S

THE DIET

       

                                              THE DIET

DAY ONE

Am forced to go on a diet due to uncontrolled diabetes. No ones fault but my own. Have neglected my diet since ive been diagnosed. Well i do stick to it but for a SHORT time only. So continuous high evening and morning sugar levels have forced me to visit a dietician. I am having a difficult time adjusting though the menu plan is simple and easy to follow. Less carbs, three meals a day and three snacks in between. Regular exercise. I have just gotten back to my early morning walks at the beach. I love those. They calm me in a way that hard to explain.

Now the word diet drives me crazy, its the wrong word methinks. We should use the words CORRECT EATING PLAN or something similar. The minute i hear the word DIET my mind and body go into a rebellious mood. I get hungrier than usual. I crave sweet more than usual. Life becomes a challenge. Mood switches to crazy. I felt like crying. Poor me phase. But alas what to do. If one wants to avoid the complications of diabetes one has to follow THE DIET. 

Being on insulin is no fun either. Side effects are weight gain. I am gaining slowly but steadily. The confusing thing is that different doctors tell you different things. Some say u need insulin and u can never go off it. Others say it is not necessary to be on insulin.  The dietician gives a TOTALLY DIFFERENT version. At the end of the day, I feel very very confused and worried. Am i getting the correct treatment? Who do i believe? whose advice do i follow? I hate diabetes. its a sad disease. It drains ur soul of happiness. Theres too much sweetness in ur body but ur soul is unhappy. Why cant the bitterness in my life counteract the sweetness? i feel so helpless at times  But we have to live with what we get...or rather attract to ourselves. Such is life. Make the most of what you have. 

Well onwards we march. Lets see how the days unfold. The main aim is to lower the sugar levels. I miss the good old days when i was not a diabetic :-(

thanks for reading.
peace and love
Lady S