WHERE AM I ????

Ever so often, I ask myself,  Where is the real me?? Where am I, where is my authentic self? The girl who had a contagious laugh, who sang her way through life's challenges,  who wanted to be a nurse, get her own flat, a car..... so many dreams lost and forgotten.  Tucked away in the folds of my heart.  

I was bubbly,  happy. Life changes you over the years and suddenly you look up one day and you are not you. You look the same, you sound the same, you behave in the same manner but your soul....aaah your soul changes. I am someone else.  The real me suppressed deep down somewhere.  Surfacing now and then, remembering who I am and then drowning again. Tangled and held down again. By life's circumstances, by my current choices, by destiny, by life itself.  Wondering if I will ever be free again.... will my heart dance again,will my soul smile..... will I be whole again, will I ever be ME again.......

Sometimes you have to change and adapt to survive, keep the peace.  But I do wish I was free to just really,  truly, LIVE.  BEFORE I DIE, TO JUST BE MY AUTHENTIC SELF.

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Love and peace 

LADY S

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